A Time Flies By

"Where did the time go? And what have I done? The days keep getting shorter and I'm still on the run" Sick Puppies - Where Did The Time Go

I still question myself that on a daily basis.
Writing my thesis, having a job and a boyfriend, harly any time for some much needed girl-talk...
It's hard to find time for oneself and when you do have that time, to spend it doing things that need to be done or doing things that you love. 
It's so easy to pass time browsing Tumblr, Youtube, Deviantart.. but really the part of writing is easily forgotten.
The thing of it is, I am scared to start writing again. I know I must finish it -- Lauren Kate said so. But to fall into my fantasy again seems hard when reality is always marching in.
Always the excuses, headache, tired, writer's block, no time, so much stuff to do -- basically is neglecting my passion and a piece of me.
I used to say that I'm a writer, but I've barely touched my stories in the past couple of months. Am I still worthy of that title?
Perhaps not but then again, there is so much going on in my life at the moment. And I bet in many other lives too, when thinking about it, it definitely scares me how many lives (about 7 billion if I'm correct) people are living right now. 

Anyhow, I'm still alive (very tired due to illness but that's getting better since Spring is really brightening the world), and intending to enjoy the days a bit more -- since time is flying by. I can barely remember my teenage years that's how fast it's all going.

Have a lovely orange day (first Kings'day here in the Low Lands, the Dutch go crazy) and some time to do things you enjoy and make you happy. We deserve to be happy.

Toodles!

February, when did you get here?

First of all, I'm lousy in keeping a blog.
I love reading them though, when others write them.
So every once in a while I find myself in a whim to write one once again.
I just keep wondering what to write, what people like to read.
Do they like to hear the stories of my life? Would they like advice on certain topics or just some random ramblings, which - let's be honest - I'm pretty good at.


Today a rambling about how February got around so quickly.
Lately it seems as if I've been living in a bubble. Two bubbles to be exact.
One bubble consists of stress and hard work (internship was so much fun, yet much hard work!) and the other consists of very happy butterflies and juggling my social life around. I've been a very bad friend for the past six months. 

Being - as you've probably guessed - a busy bee, it is hard to reflect on all the good stuff that has happened.
Especially looking back to this time last year - being a mousy little girl that was knocking on a strange front door as a school assignment. This assignment was the start of what we call a minor-study, in which we learned to get self-confidence and use theater as a way of connecting to people and hear strangers' stories. 
I never thought I would be able to do that, but there I was, talking to a total stranger.
From that moment on I knew I was about tot change to someone with a little bit more confidence.
Little did I know that I would performing on a stage with a 100 people watching me play a bit scary Greek Goddess;

Meet me as Klotho, one of the Fates

Or that I would fall in deeply love that summer and come to the conclusion that - since then - I've been craving less for chocolate! 
Even that I would be able to finish my internship - after a lot of stress, a few panic attacks and a massive amount of work done right- with a fantastic grade and confidence in myself being an actual speechtherapist.

Spotted just now: Spring in my garden!

February is here now and like every start of February, I'm feeling poorly (it's like clockwork that scary).
But the weather outside is beautiful. The sun is shining and I woke up by a few birds that were already singing their songs.
Spring is coming and I couldn't be more delighted.
Right now I'm trying not to think about tomorrow, when I have to really start with my graduation thesis and the stress will only grow once again.
Therefore my goal for February is to relax a bit more, spend some quality time with my friends and to enjoy the oncoming Spring. It is time that I start to worry less, don't let anxiety get the best of me and just go with it. 

Is there anything you would like to achieve this month?




I watched 'The Best Exotic Marigold Hotel' the other night and as dear Sonny said: "everything will be okay in the end. If it's not okay, it is not the end". 

And with that saying I wish you all a very good month!

Toodles! Iris

Images are not mine, most of them belong to their respectful owners (via Tumblr). Photo of me as Klotho belongs to a good friend of mine and the flowers of our garden belong to my mother and mother Earth, I took the liberty of taking the crappy picture with my phone though, I should be arrested for the violation of this beatuy.